When I was 7, I realized for the first time that I was an individual entity. I just woke up one day and was different. It disturbed me.  Prior, I felt a strong connection to my family especially my mother, as if we were one. I remember lying on her bedroom floor crying because I could no longer feel her. I tried to express how I felt like an island. She comforted me, but it was not the same comfort as before. It was the most alone I have ever been. All the days prior I had felt a part of a collective.
I was now my one self.

I have always been intrigued by and sought out connection; believing in the connection of all things. Spirit, soul, and consciousness all play a role.

I dip in and out of exploring and being more or less connected with my oneness and the greater collective matrix.

It’s a wonderful thing to be able to do explorations of our inner wisdom within some structure and with other people*. Tomorrow I start a 9 month program for Alchemy Mastery. Participants will meet monthly to explore our relationship to the metaphysical through universal patterns, numbers, ritual, and archetypes. We’ll begin our journey with “one”.

Yes, it’s unconventional, yes it’s woo-woo.

What we choose to believe is a very personal thing. My goal is to be continually open to the possibilities and to feel oneness with all things.

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*I go to the church of flora goldthwaite, where there is a membership of one.